Oh deary me...

Looks like there's a HUGE outrage over the fact that Heaven has been taken over by none other that G-A-Y! Now here's a quote from a rather dear friend of mine John Gough..

"let’s hope Jeremy makes a success of it, so we can celebrate his good fortune"

This is the problem I think. As much as there are A LOT of G-A-Y lovers out there, Heaven has made it's name from being the exact opposite of G-A-Y! When would you ever hear Beenie Man playing in G-A-Y? Would you ever hear Steps playing in the Dakota Room in Heaven? No!

This is what differentiated the two venues! I honestly feel that Jeremy will see Heaven as a place to continue with the same thing he was doing at Astoria (which i add consists of nights like "Camp Attack" and others along those lines. It's all good and well having your brand, every business needs one. However to turn one of London's biggest clubs into what will basically be a children's playground (cos lets face it...it's kids that go to G-A-Y these days) is just totally disrespecting the needs of the community.

It's not just about good fortune. This whole process I seriously think will cause a knock on effect to the community. Think about the kind of people that go to Heaven and the kind that go to G-A-Y...mostly black people in Heaven and mostly white guys in G-A-Y..As a community, we are already separatist in the sense that we can't even go out to the same club! Now when G-A-Y take over Heaven and just say for instance they do bring what they did at the Astoria to Heaven...how is that gonna go down in the community? Think about it...those who go to Heaven are just gonna feel like they're being "run out" by the G-A-Y brand and ultimately by Jeremy.

I'm rambling now, but seriously...I don't think it's the brightest move to be made by Jeremy or by the owners of Heaven!

Let's get straight to the point

These were made..for ME!!

The never ending dilema of...

Birthday presents....Is it me, or as people get older, it gets harder and harder to think of a decent present for them? Yesterday was my mum's birthday...she turned 21 for the 19th time.

I sat at home...wondering..contemplating..thinking.."What the hell am I going to get her?!"
It was soo easy when people were young! 15th birthday you get them a game. 16th their first packet of cigarettes (JOKE). 18th they get a bottle of something alcoholic. 21st..well by then they're old and ugly enough to do what they want.

I asked her what she wanted. She said "Suprise me". So I suprised her...and got her nothing. I'm running out of things to buy for people for their birthday! If you think that some of the people in my life I've known all my life. So I've been through 20 odd birthdays of these people now! There's only soo much you can get people right???

What did you get your mummy on her last birthday???

Quote of the Day

Saw this quote in a book today and it REALLY make a lot of sense and kinda got me thinking. Can you only ever blame yourself for the things that happen in your life?

"Actions have consequences...First rule of life. And the second rule is this - You are the only person responsible for your actions."

Could you have made things so much different in your life, had you thought that the outcome is purely going to be down to your actions and your actions alone...no one else has an influence on the consequences. Just you. Yes you. Yes I am pointing to YOU looking at the screen!

It also spurs me to be more decisive in my life choices. No point in saying "I don't know". you need to make a descision, based on..consequences.

But hey just thought I'd check in and give you a motivational quote to start the day off!

Pickle me this..Pickle me that

This is a cool thing here! Pickle Public Relations. (I love the name!)

They're a great PR agency, who do PR for new dsigner fashion and for hair and beauty.

They've worked with the likes of Toni and Guy and Hair and Jerome!

So if you work in hair, beauty or maybe starting your own fashion line..what you waiting for?! Go speak go speak!

www.picklepr.blogspot.com

And they use MACs!!!

picklepr@mac.com

Oh and the owner is a bit of a dish too!!

Purchase number 1 for the week..

I bought a t-shirt today..here's a picture















Isn't it nice? :D

The ex torlly dolly and the BENDY BUS nightmare!

OK. So the weekend is over..so damn quickly! I went to Nottingham to spend some time with some lovely important people in my life. Had a great time and can’t wait to see them again. Anyway I’m coming home from a great weekend and I get to Liverpool Street station. London Underground have decided to take up tracks on a busy weekend (which makes no sense to me cos weekends are ALWAYS busy) so I have to get to sunny Stratford station. Fine by me…then I decide I need to get a bus to get home. I go out the station and hey presto there’s a number 25 bus waiting for me..I run (i don’t usually run for transport but i wanted to get home) and jump on what is a rather busy bus..I’m standing by the doors of this stupidly bendy bus! then we stop at a bus stop…the doors open…and a rather BIG family decide to BARGE their way through onto the bus…and when I say barge I mean barge!

A woman was getting off the bus with a buggy, yet they insisted on pushing and pushing..and LAUGHING about it! The wife pushed into me.Now I know sometimes you can’t help bumping into people, but whatever you do..DO NOT PUSH ME!!! I gave this woman and her husband the dirtiest possible look so that they got the message…she looks away..then does it AGAIN! So I said to the husband “Am I invisible?” to which he just looked at me and giggled. It was like this for A LOT of the journey…to the point where i decided I’d be better off walking to Ilford and save my humility!

Why am I telling you this story??? Well..i’m an ex trolley dolly (flight attendant to you Americans)..I’m used to organised seats and gliding down the aisles…I’m used to aluminium tubes…NOW KEN IF YOU’RE READING THIS, LISTEN CAREFULLY…BENDY BUSES ARE USELESS!! Public transport is a NIGHTMARE! I am rather misanthropic (as is a very dear friend of mine so he will feel my pain!)..yet Ken, you don’t seem to take us misanthropic people into consideration!!! Maybe I am turning into a miserable old man before my time, but personally I CAN’T BARE THE PUBLIC (unless they're irresistably gorgeous men :D)

I pay bloody good money in tax to “IMPROVE” our transport system and I don’t see why I, who was born and bred in this country (as well as my parents) should have to suffer at the hands of naive people! It just ain’t on mate!! Moan OVER

Dating Diary is now open....

So I've sat here today thinking about people I've gone out on dates with (there aren't that many honestly!) I think the majority was just for fun, but there are two or three guys that were shall we say "serious"...although for me to go on a date with anyone, I guess there was some kind of potential between us. Looking back though...for most of them..what was I thinking???!!

Friends have said to me "Oh you're going on the rebound." You know the one. Go out on a date just to prove to the last guy you dated that you can get anyone..or to just distance yourself completely from him. You think of all the things he used to do (stupid things like he farts or he burps) just for an excuse to hate him! I haven't done it for a while (mainly cos I haven't dated to god knows how long). But the last time I did it, it was me buying into shallowness and the power of face value.

So i started talking to my friend about it over a few sherry's and it wasn't until then that I thought to myself..whoever it is up there who has an influence on my relationships, must REALLY not like me! Cos either a) They want to be "just friends" or b) They are NOTHING like they seemed before I met them! This is going to sound so big headed, but sometimes, I think it's my maturity that scares them off. I'm young...definitely. I look it too. But my mind is on another level, and I seriously think that some men get scared off by the fact someone my age can be as mature as I am. Baring in mind that I usually always go for older men too. I can't do younger guys or guys my age. They just haven't got the same kind of depth as I would like and they're like kids anyway.

I have a friend who is like the boyfriend I never had. I am both physically and mentally attracted to him. Yes he is older, but he has inspired me in ways I can not describe. In fact, if it wasn't for him, this blog wouldn't be here now. He inspired me to write (as rubbish as I may be at it)! And superficially. Well..SEX ON LEGS is all I can say. Think I'm going weak at the knees just thinking about it! Apparently he feels the same way about me, but the problem is he has a bf...so there's no chance of that happening anytime soon! If I knew he was going to become single anytime soon..I would wait wait and wait to have him to myself!!

Anyway! Since I can't see into the future and I don't really want to see my friend go through bad break ups, I've decided to open up my "dating diary" and start filling it up! I've not dated for so so long so this should be pretty interesting! Maybe I should practice on my friend!

I've decided I need to put myself out there as it were. Maybe through the use of dating sites. But I have no idea which one. I like a masculine man, but also partial to a pretty boy. In other words, I'm not fussy! So I'm using the following websites!

Fitlads
Adam4Adam
Gaydar
Manhunt

And if you fancy being one of my guinea pigs for my dating practice, leave a comment, telling me what we'd do on our date. Best idea gets to MEET ME!! (not)

I have NO idea how well it's going to go, but I will most DEFINITELY keep you posted!

That dreadful feeling that you're loosing someone....

You ever get that feeling? You know..when things just seem that teeny weeny bit different between you and a special someone.

It’s not the best of feelings is it? And you obviously want to get this matter sorted.
But how do you approach your friend about this? What if your friend is not feeling the same?

The reason for all of this is because I’ve been speaking to a friend recently and conversations have gone a bit..downhill shall we say…conversation is awkward…for me anyway. There seems to be the good old msn silence.
FOR A LONG TIME!

Have we run out of things to say to eachother? Have we lost interest in eachother? Most of my friends are my friends because they have depth and I have an interest in their lives, views so on and so fourth. I should be able to not speak to them for a week, then get in touch with them and we both have quite a bit to say to eachother.
I would’ve hoped!

But when me and this friend of mine have had our conversations recently…it’s something I’m not liking. We seem distant from eachother.
Maybe our interests lie somewhere else? But I don’t want it to get to that!!!!

I seriously believe that you can “break up” from friends, but this is a friend that I don’t want it to happen with. However I feel like I’m slowly losing someone who is one of the closest friends I have..(those of you close to me, probably know who this certain someone is…)

How do you avoid this potential “break-up”? How do you approach someone about something like this, which is pretty serious. What if they think differently.
Does this make things even MORE awkward between you? Am I over reacting? Is it jealousy?

I’m rambling now…so gonna shut up! But was GREAT getting it off ma chest!

Hmmmm..I’ll let you know of any developments in this!!

The supporting cast..

Ok so while I get used to this whole new world of "blogging" (who on earth came up with that word??), I thought I'd better introduce you to some of the people in my life and if it wasn't for these guys, there would probably be nothing for me to write about.

The Mother and Father - The mother and father I've known for about 20 odd years now. Lived with them. Argued with them. Laughed. The usual! But they are two of the most influential people in my life and like bro and sis. But that's all you need to know really. Audience, Mum and Dad. Mum and Dad, Audience.

Ka-os: We should have met in our previous lives and probably married eachother and lived happily ever after. He's the boyfriend I never had. My voice of sanity and reason in this crazy city...but the best part is, he gets me without any judgment whatsoever...something I've come to value in people I keep close to me.

Liamyul: Liamyul is the one person who lives within a 5 mile radius of my house who is considered a true friend of mine. We tell eachother everything, have MAD nights out, argue over which men we think are hot or not and so on and so fourth! Expect a lot of fun with this one!

And Breathe....

This is it...this is is..I've finally taken the plunge! Decided to write...to you lot of all people!

It's actually 3.00am on a Tuesday night/Wednesday morning and I'm sat here listening to Buddah Bar on my iTunes and I've decided to come up with a blog. WHY??!

Did something MAJOR happen in my life today?? Have I just come out of a terrible relationship and I need to let my feelings known?? Am I stupidly drunk or out of my head on drugs? Well the answer to all those questions, in a word is..No...The real reason why I've started this is pretty straight forward..BOREDOM! That's it really..bored out of my tree so I thought I'd let you guys be bored with me.

So let me introduce myself. Mid 20's, male, gay, single (still) and looking (still), live in sunny London Town. Anything else you wish to know, questions on a postcard please. Just underneath these basics, I'm actually a very nice person, love meeting new people, eager to be happy in my life and what I do and can't wait to experience what life has to offer me.

Having not done the university thing (and never really wanting to) I've been stuck in the mad rat race for all of my teenage life. Done plenty, still want to do more. And this was one of them as a matter of fact. So yay me! Another item to tick off the list.

Anyway, follow me as we experience, parties, fashion, men, drink, friends and drama. This may be a life you'd want to live. Or not.

I intend to remain completely anonymous throughout this blog...but I thought I'd just let you have a glimpse of me...so if you ever see this arm/ leg or wristband about town..say hi!